Thank you all for your prayers! I actually had a good morning, and I felt like I got a little extra measure of peace when I felt the little mister kicking up a tiny storm this morning. Today's ultrasound went really well. It was a bit rushed because we were late (totally our fault), so we didn't get many good pictures, but since we have the standard 20 week level two scan coming up in two weeks I'm fine with that. We'll get much better pictures then.
Anyhow, there is absolutely no doubt that this baby is a boy. Also, this doctor (who was different than our usual) was pretty unequivocal in stating that she has no reason to suspect that he has SRPS. Of course, she also had the benefit of a bigger and older baby. None of the standard "signs" of our type of SRPS are present. No shortened limbs, no shortened ribs, ten fingers and ten toes, his kidneys look great, his heart is well developed, and she got a great look at his face and his lip is not cleft. Her exact words were, "I have no suspicion of SRPS" at this time. She further said that with SRPS dwarfing is typically so dramatic that she really believes it would have shown up by now. All wonderful things to hear. We are very thankful for the good news. I know that I will be on cloud nine for the next ten to twelve days before I start to get nervous about the twenty week.
It is my assumption/feeling that after the twenty week I will be able to relax a little more and finally feel good about this pregnancy (although I've been feeling varying levels of relief/excitement since the 12 week), but our doctor is not so sure. Of course he has the benefit of vast experience of working with women who are pregnant after a loss, and it is his opinion that I should prepare myself for a very hard third trimester. Apparently it is not uncommon for people to re-grieve their lost baby during and after a healthy pregnancy, and that usually starts up right around the time that the baby passed away. Apparently I also need to be more careful than most people about postpartum depression for the same reason. That all makes sense to me, and I always strive to keep a close watch on my mental health because of my family history of issues and for the sake of my children. That said, I am trying not to think about the possibility of re-grieving right now. I hope that I will have some time to just be excited about the arrival of this little one without all the baggage.
Anyhow, there is absolutely no doubt that this baby is a boy. Also, this doctor (who was different than our usual) was pretty unequivocal in stating that she has no reason to suspect that he has SRPS. Of course, she also had the benefit of a bigger and older baby. None of the standard "signs" of our type of SRPS are present. No shortened limbs, no shortened ribs, ten fingers and ten toes, his kidneys look great, his heart is well developed, and she got a great look at his face and his lip is not cleft. Her exact words were, "I have no suspicion of SRPS" at this time. She further said that with SRPS dwarfing is typically so dramatic that she really believes it would have shown up by now. All wonderful things to hear. We are very thankful for the good news. I know that I will be on cloud nine for the next ten to twelve days before I start to get nervous about the twenty week.
It is my assumption/feeling that after the twenty week I will be able to relax a little more and finally feel good about this pregnancy (although I've been feeling varying levels of relief/excitement since the 12 week), but our doctor is not so sure. Of course he has the benefit of vast experience of working with women who are pregnant after a loss, and it is his opinion that I should prepare myself for a very hard third trimester. Apparently it is not uncommon for people to re-grieve their lost baby during and after a healthy pregnancy, and that usually starts up right around the time that the baby passed away. Apparently I also need to be more careful than most people about postpartum depression for the same reason. That all makes sense to me, and I always strive to keep a close watch on my mental health because of my family history of issues and for the sake of my children. That said, I am trying not to think about the possibility of re-grieving right now. I hope that I will have some time to just be excited about the arrival of this little one without all the baggage.
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Oh! This is a lovely post. Continuing to pray for you and all you boys.
very exciting news. Your are always in our prayers.
Rejoicing with you now and will continue to pray!!
Praise God! We will continue to pray for you! Say hi to Jeff, Tommy, and Nic for me. I miss cuddling with the boys :-)
:-)
as always: i love you. i am praying for you and if you need anything please call me!
Ditto what Jo said.
Yay! :-)
Good news!! I know you mention that having a baby after a loss can cause grief to rear its ugly head - but in other ways, it can also be "healing" as well - and I pray that this son will bring such healing and peace and joy into your precious family!! xox
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